I have a serious question for my followers.
I spent the last year and a half of my life with someone who barely spoke to me the first four months of our relationship. We began dating in February 2014 and in the summer I was the only one going to see him at his house. Where he would show insincere affection, never thought twice about my pleasure during sex, but yet I loved this guy so much I gave it all away to him at this point. I had to beg him to be affectionate to me, he was very negligent until about June 2015. He broke up with me a week ago because he said he was leading me on. He ended our 1.5 year relationship on a 20 minute phone call.

OKAY THATS THE INFORMATION

now here’s the question:
I feel disgusted with myself for having unprotected sex with him for a majority of our relationship, at least a year. And he didn’t pull out. I feel violated, lied to, and ashamed of myself. He told me we were gonna get married. Could someone give me advice on this because I know I shouldn’t feel this way but I feel so nasty